What the heck was I thinking?

Ever ask yourself that question? I ask it of myself all the time. My latest subject is retirement. What made me think retirement was going to be so great? Of course, this is just my first week so, it remains to be seen how this will all go in the long run. I have been able to work on several projects that I never had time for before. That is the part I am enjoying.

Unfortunately for me, I am a person who needs validation. I just don't get a lot of that at home. At work, you have people who complement you every day. Simple things like hair, makeup, work, etc., elicit some kind of comment. Now, whether or not people mean what they say is beside the point. At least they make the effort to compliment, and it brightened my day.

Retirement during COVID brings no such comments. New haircut-no comment; hair color-no comment; makeup-no comment. Good morning Diana, you look nice today. Wow, your project is coming along nicely. You sure have made an improvement in the yard. Good job.

Sorry for the rant. I am just feeling like I don't matter anymore. Nobody loves me, everybody hates me, guess I'll go eat worms